Bleak

Kauai

I could don on the brightest of dresses,

go to the sunniest of places,

but I still couldn’t shake off this somberness

that hangs over me.

Msdedeng

Published by Msdedeng

At 41, I am still figuring out life: my place in society, my career path, a family of my own, any many others things. Heck, I am still trying to make friends in California; a place I moved to 3 years ago. I am currently in a Community College to make up for the many years I missed school while in Africa (Uganda). I intend to transfer to university next year and double major in History and English. I lead a very ordinary life; a normal day is spent doing school assignments, hiking, or reading. My favorite thing to do is walk! Short walks or long walks it does not matter. Walking allows me to think about things - anything! My love of walking comes from where I grew up, a small village in northeastern Uganda. It is still one of the most remotest areas I will ever know, and couldn't even start comparing what life is like there to say a place like California. Walking was all I did while growing up! I walked for miles to school, to church, to the shops, to the borehole to fetch water, and to the market. It was quite an adventure unlike any other - so you now understand my love for walking.

111 thoughts on “Bleak

  1. Well actually correcting life after all my umm ?? devastating things

    But laughter through all of it – kinda helped keep me ok. That and amazing people who came into my life ✌️

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  2. Always ❀️ Am very safe – that’s my thing lol

    I like 4 things… safety, security, peace and laughter ❀️

    Safety because I do not want to die…

    Security because I do not like worrying all the time – want to be secure

    Peace because tired of fighting constantly

    And laughter because has always always always kept my life bright through darkest times ❀️ – that one is my balance πŸ˜˜πŸ˜„βœŒοΈ

    So stay safe also – and I wish those for you too 😘❀️

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  3. Eh… have my moments as well lol πŸ˜„βœŒοΈπŸ˜˜

    Staying safe and still alive so that’s a bonus! Lol

    Not perfect, but working towards trying to get everything balanced out

    I am out of balance myself currently 😝

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  4. You are welcome – stay strong – life always has moments … it will get better … everyone is kinda struggling at this moment – so much happening and so much change and craziness

    But slowly it will get better – take one moment at a time

    I’m always up here in Sac – so remember that 😘✌️

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  5. Wow! despite how short it is, it is incredibly powerful. even after the poem ends, I’m wondering about this feeling of “somberness” hanging over them. what? why? how? Love it.

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  6. Whoever has the name of Angela, is already enlightened by nature. The shadow is the pure absence of light. When we let the light in, what is dark disappears. Loving embrace

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  7. Dearest Keith, what can I say? the fact that you picked on the picture is very telling; it was indeed very intentional to say that feeling somber is only temporal, because each new day brings its own emotions. Keith, if I make it in future, you are without a doubt going to be my consultant and editor. You have a talent of seeing things the way the author sees it and even more. I truly enjoy, no; indulge in your comments. I would be content just reading your mind.
    Big, warm hugs your way my friend!

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  8. Tough to read of your funk, Angela. Particularly when you’re a valuable source of happiness and cheer for your readers.

    What does this mean? Are you not allowed your own emotions? Of course you are, and the ebbs and flows make your sunniness, past and future, all the more authentic.

    That you would choose the photo you did, despite current struggles, speaks to the positivity that still buzzes within you. That’s something somberness can’t touch. Your memories, and the joy they bring, will outlast current circumstances, and they’ll continue to invigorate your dreams. They speak of the one thing that’s unambiguously ours, and still all-potential, the future.

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  9. Glad to hear you are doing OK, we really should be thankful for such mercies.
    Thank you for your kind words sister πŸ™‚ and please take good care of yourself and family. πŸ™‚

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  10. Dear Angela, there are always moments like this in life. I feel this way often.
    i always try to imagine that these sad moments will eventually pass. i search in my memory and think of happy moments in my life.
    Stay safe and have a nice day
    Rosie from Germany… πŸ™‚ ❀🌺

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  11. I guess I haven’t really asked how you are doing? I know you had a friend around a couple weeks ago; and I know you do hike every now and again, anything else going on in your busy world? πŸ™‚

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  12. I am ok thank Msdedeng. I suppose you could say getting my m.o.t (as in car mechanical test) sorted for the winter. Influenza jab, routine annual blood tests. Chiropody with a haircut thrown in. I have been having a few acupuncture treatments on my hip and back with effect. The damp weather st present doesn’t help. As mum r.i.p would say β€˜it’s in the breed’ I.e rheumatism. πŸ™‚πŸ™‚

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  13. Dear Margaret, I am well, thank you. I have received so much love and concern on here, but I am really OK. I wrote whim based on how I felt at the moment.
    How have you been? It’s so very nice to “see” you again πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

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  14. sorry you’re feeling that way … that photo would lift my spirits but guess you are feeling homesick 😦

    Take care precious, spoil yourself and link up with good friends πŸ™‚

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  15. Aww, thank you. It’s sad that most people are feeling this way, we need better days. As for me, I can’t quite figure out why this is the case, but I appreciate your comment.

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